Reclaiming Balance: What Course Creation Taught Me About My Body’s Wisdom

Reflections on returning to technology after years of nature-based living

What I am learning about myself while creating this new course is that a little time with technology—focused sitting at a computer—goes a long way.

It is surprising. After nearly 30 years of working with technology, sitting in an office, immersed in CRM software and spreadsheets and screens, it has taken me only a few days to realize that my nourishing habits shifted while creating this course.

The greater understanding that emerged is this: my body is no longer made to do those non-stop focused hours at a computer. Now, after twelve years of choosing to be around the animal beings and spending much more time in nature, my body and nervous system’s memory is helping me see old, unhealthy patterns.

Patterns of sitting in one place focused on a computer screen. Forgetting to nourish myself. Not getting up to move my body for hours on end. Wondering how it got to be 3 or 4pm when I sat down at 10am.

The Recognition

Recognizing that I feel more drained, undernourished—and it is time to change, integrate the new learnings, and become that newer, more aware version of myself.

There’s something about releasing the perception of time. That space between rushing to keep the momentum and stay in line with the flow of energy versus not doing anything with the idea and not moving it forward ever and losing the spark to keep it going.

”Now sitting with the harmony and alignment. As I write, create and layout the course, it is showing me where learning or embodiment is still required.”

The Symbolism of Red Lights

This morning, after I left a client’s home, I was trying to avoid driving into the direct bright, nearly white sun and chose another route home. When I got to the intersection, all the traffic lights were flashing red and no one knew when it was their turn to go at this very busy intersection.

I drove down through a neighborhood to mention it to a policeman I had seen sitting in a lot. He shared they had been notified and the street electrical crew had been notified, and it was to be treated as a four-way stop.

The only problem I recognized was instead of four sections treating it that way, there were four lanes with turn lanes and no one going together.

Sometimes the universe offers us these moments—the flashing red lights, the confusion at the intersection, the bright sun we’re trying to avoid. All of it mirroring back what we’re learning about ourselves. About when to move forward, when to pause, and how to find our own rhythm when the external signals aren’t clear.

The work continues. The integration deepens. And I’m learning to listen to what my body has been trying to tell me all along.

*The course is teaching me as much as I hope it will teach others. Perhaps that’s exactly as it should be.*

With this understanding came the song “Everything is Beautiful in its own way…” – the slower, more embodied way isn’t backward movement,  it is its own kind of beautiful progress.